Friday, December 31, 2010

Colman McCarthy - Still an Idiot

Colman McCarthy is a journalist, pacifist, and anarchist. His Wikipedia entry (he deserves one?) can be found here. I don't really know that I agree with the man on anything other than the sky being blue.

Honestly, pacifism, the preference to peace over war, isn't such an objectionable idea to me. Wasn't it Robert E. Lee who said, "It is good that war is so terrible - lest we grow too fond of it."?

But that said, most pacifists I have ever met have a distinct disconnection with reality. They seem to think that if only we would eliminate the military and hold hands and sing, that bad guys would cease being bad, that other nations and peoples would stop trying to use force to get what they want, and we'd be able to find a diplomatic solution to everything. That's simply not realistic. It is in human nature to lie and deceive. To try and force one's will upon others when you have the upper hand. It's an ugly part of humanity, one that most of us spend our lives trying to overcome. But it's there. Despite the fact that almost all of the world's great religious leaders preached peace, it still happens. It's part of the human condition.

I think there are very few people who believe war is good. Perhaps the defense contractors. I don't know. But most rational people acknowledge that it is, at times, necessary, even though it's terrible.

All that is to say, many university campuses, particularly the Ivy League schools, had long ago - mostly during Vietnam - eliminated the ROTC groups on their campuses, largely because of the very strong anti war demonstrations of the Vietnam era. Since then, many of them have kept the bans in place, often times because they have university policies against 'discriminatory undergraduate student groups', which they applied to the ROTC because of Don't Ask Don't Tell. It largely didn't affect them since, as private universities, they weren't receiving a whole lot of Federal funds anyway. Most of their finances were provided through endowments.

Now that DADT is in the process of formal repeal and gays are now allowed to openly serve in the military, the universities who have used DADT as a leg to continue their ROTC ban are beginning to find themselves under pressure to reinstitute their ROTC programs. To which some strong pacifists have objections, as can be seen below.

Colman McCarthy - 'Don't ask, don't tell' has been repealed. ROTC still shouldn't be on campus.:

"To oppose ROTC, as I have since my college days in the 1960s, when my school enticed too many of my classmates into joining, is not to be anti-soldier. I admire those who join armies, whether America's or the Taliban's: for their discipline, for their loyalty to their buddies and to their principles, for their sacrifices to be away from home. In recent years, I've had several Iraq and Afghanistan combat veterans in my college classes. If only the peace movement were as populated by people of such resolve and daring.

ROTC and its warrior ethic taint the intellectual purity of a school, if by purity we mean trying to rise above the foul idea that nations can kill and destroy their way to peace. If a school such as Harvard does sell out to the military, let it at least be honest and add a sign at its Cambridge front portal: Harvard, a Pentagon Annex."

Yes, because soldiers in the US military are exactly like soldiers in the Taliban. Trying to keep their women wearing burqas, establish a theocracy in America, than kind of stuff. Except, no. Wait. They're pretty much opposites and to compare the two is offensive at best. Yes, I understand Taliban soldiers are humans with feelings who believe in what they're fighting for, than it takes commitment and bravery. The difference is, Taliban soldiers are fighting for an ideal I, and all Americans, should find repugnant. They fight for the opposite of liberty, for tyranny and absolute control over peoples lives, enforced by the sword. That is why they don't deserve any respect.

It's honestly ironic to me that someone so pacifistic and falling under what I would typically consider the progressive ethos would do anything but despise these sort of Taliban groups. In his article, McCarthy spoke the virtues of peace studies, minority studies, and women's studies at the universities in question. Doesn't believing in those ideals make the ideals of aforementioned groups absolutely reprehensible?

What does it mean then, when you compare our US military to those groups?

Good to know that our men serve to protect McCarthy's syndicated column. Free Speech for all, even the foolish.

Wednesday, December 29, 2010

Cuisinart DBM-8 Supreme Grind Automatic Burr Mill

This was one of the gifts I received this Christmas, graciously from my Honey Bunny. I just used it for the first time, and I have to say, wow! As a warning, I've never used a coffee grinder of any sort before, I've always bought pre ground coffee. So, this may not be the best coffee grinder in the world, I don't know, I'm not a grinder connoisseur. However, that said, I'm very impressed. The grind was definitely more consistent than any commercially ground coffee I've ever had. And the flavor was leaps and bounds better than commercial coffee! It'll be hard to ever go back. I never knew the toll oxidation took on the beans until now. 

It has a slew of nice features:
  • Bur grinding, which is more consistent than blade grinding, with rarer replacement of bits.
  • Relatively simple design and few moving parts, making it durable and easy to clean.
  • Quick to grind.
  • There is a selector which allows you to set how many cups you want to make. Then pour in whole beans, and the grinder does the measuring.
  • Relatively air tight lid for storage of extra beans.
  • You can how fine or coarse you want the grind to be, making it ideal for everything from espresso, to drip coffee, to French press.
  • Did I mention freshly ground beans taste a million times better than pre ground beans from the store?
Only drawback I've noticed so far (after one use) is that it is incredibly loud. You might wake the baby. But with that in mind, I'm very impressed. Definitely changed my coffee experience for the better.

Find out more details about it on Amazon here.


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The Antikythera Mechanism With A Twist

Doesn't have much to do with any of my recent posts except that it's really cool, and I like anything lego. Having almost no knowledge of engineering, I can't say I totally understand the math within the gears concept, but fascinating nonetheless.

Monday, December 20, 2010

The Manslator

Because I'd hate to accidentally have two deep, philosophical posts in a row, I'll interject this to cleanse the mental pallet.

Saturday, December 18, 2010

On Christianity

Let me start out by saying, I am a Christian. I consider myself non-denominational. Let me also state that I am barely twenty-three years old in this world, and the church has been around for almost two thousand years. I realize this. I probably don't have the greatest, wisest perspective on things. I certainly know I'm no Biblical scholar, nor do I claim to be. But I have a number of thoughts and observations that I think have some level of validity that I want to expound on, be it for criticism, or simply my own introspection. Hopefully I'll light a few fires of introspection in others as well.

Sometimes, The Mind Is Roundabout 


Often times, my beloved girlfriend challenges me about things. Well, everything really. And that's ok. It's wonderful, really. I may not always think it at the time, but I am blessed to have someone who won't let me sit on my laurels and assume I know all about everything. It's good for me to have my world shaken at times.

Often times she challenges me about my association with Freemasonry, with questions that I can usually answer, though not always, and not always to her satisfaction. This sometimes constant barrage keeps me on my toes, and constantly learning so that I truly know what I am speaking about, not simply assuming for my own convenience.

One of her challenges recently was a venting of frustration that I seemed to be very fired up about Freemasonry, more so than I talk about God or my faith. I didn't have much of an answer at the time, which inevitably led to introspection. I think one of my saving graces, despite all my flaws, is that I must always know the 'Why?' to everything. Yes, I was 'that kid.' So, when I'm challenged with something to which I don't immediately have an answer, it frustrates me to know end. Sometimes to the point of angering me at myself for not reasoning things out sooner. Seriously, it makes me mad.

So I asked myself, why is it that one has me so fired up as of late, yet the other I hardly speak about? While my Christian beliefs have certainly altered while I've been in college, Freemasonry has had nothing to do with it. I don't find one in conflict over the other. I do believe that my relationship with God is ultimately the most important relationship in the world, over any fraternity. So why was one preoccupying my mind? I came to several conclusions.


  1. Freemasonry is the 'new' thing in my life. This is certainly a contributing factor. Just like on Christmas morning when you unwrap that new novel, firetruck, Batman action figure, or what have you, and that item is on your mind for quite some time. While it's overall a human trend, it's definitely a boy trend. Then of guys and their gadgets. If they have a new toy that's revolutionized their life, they have to show it to everyone so that everyone can know how useful it would be to have this new digital wonder! Etc. So, it's still new to me. It's shiny. The 'honeymoon isn't over' as the saying goes. (I don't really like that saying, but that's another discussion.) And as a result, I'm reverting back to my 8 year old boy mode, and showing off my new toy to the world. Yes, that's dumbing it down, but it's true, to one extent or another.
  2. I've found a new level of discussion with other Masons. It's a level of discussion I haven't found elsewhere. It's deeply introspective, which is something most youth lack. Something I crave. Most twenty-three year olds can't see the future past their next kegger on the weekend. I'm not that kind of twenty-three year old. I want to contemplate the meaning of life. The nature of God. Philosophy, morality, ethics. Granted, when I attend lodge, that's not typical day to day discussion. But Masons are inherently symbolic people, and attach deep meaning to most everything in life. Especially their rituals. (Which, contrary to what many would tell you, are inherently Christian in nature. Symbolically, of course.)
  3. I don't feel that I know of a church where I feel at home right now. Now, this is where I'm a bit convicted. I've visited around some, but I certainly haven't visited every church in the area, and I haven't given them all a fair shake. And you know, I'll probably never find the 'perfect' church that I envision in my mind, and I'm coming to grips with that. Honestly, a big part of it is separation from Sharon. I don't like going to church without her. I want to share my spiritual life with her, and it sometimes feels incomplete without her. I know she probably doesn't feel this way at times. I'm a pain in the butt. (If you're reading, sorry for being a butt-pain honey!) But, she's such an important part of my life, I want her to be there with me. And I deeply value her insight into Biblical knowledge, even when I'm a total butt-pain about it. 
All Of This Got Me A Thinkin'


I started wondering what it was that has turned me off from particular churches. What were things I valued in certain churches, and what were things I disliked about particular churches I've visited. And of course, that not being enough for me, for I have to increase the difficult in every aspect of my life, I started thinking on a bigger scale, regarding Christianity as a whole. What out there appeals to me/seems right in my mind? What doesn't sit right with what I know of Christ, written in the Bible, the Word of God? Maybe this is a trite way to evaluate things, but I think to some extent I am a bit of the everyman, and this is what the world is seeing in the church right now, and why it is having problems.

[Let me be clear, I do not believe the problem is Christianity. Rather, I believe it's in the people practicing it. I think Christ laid out a perfect plan for our lives and relationship with God, and it is our combined failings as Christians that is the problem, not Christ's teachings.

Also, caveat that these are general observations. This isn't personally attacking anyone. It's thoughts about an entire culture.]


  1. Many Christians profess a belief that does not affect their everyday lives. I hesitated to put this first on this list. It doesn't make good authorial sense to do so, as I think it's the greatest single problem, so logically I should place it at the end and make you work your way to it, right? Seriously, though. I know many who proclaim to be a member of one denomination or another, and - from their actions - I would never guess they associate with a Christian Church. Especially people of my generation. Perhaps this is more indicative of my generation's culture than the church. It's sometimes hard to differentiate correlation from causation. But there are many tenants that Christ himself spoke that not only go ignored by many Christians, but is often times outright suppressed. Christs message was 99% love, humility, compassion, charity, and devotion to God. Yes, he overturned the tables of the moneylenders in the Temple. It was God's house. But did he not always welcome anyone who sought him and his guidance? 
  2. Christians are trying to impose their beliefs on others rather than selling them by their own merit. The constant legal batters over so many issues in the world today are the symptoms of this problem. Instead of trying to convince others to do something because it is the virtuous, moral, or Godly thing to do, they simply try to gain a simple majority and outlaw a thing in their city/state. That's a lot easier than upholding a belief system on it's own values. Especially when some of those beliefs are dubious. I think one of the most important tenants in Christianity, or any belief system, is that someone chooses to follow its principles. Morals by law are tyranny. Morals by choice are philosophy. The Great Commission asked us to makes disciples among men, and to, "teach them to obey everything I have commanded you." It didn't saying anything about outlawing other beliefs or ways of life to make our own little Christian utopia. No, we were to go out into the world and convince people of Christianity's virtue on it's own merit, as individuals. We need to quit trying to legislate our religion. 
  3. Christianity has become a culture, no longer a religion to many people.  This one is difficult to differentiate from the first. But it seems that many are withing the Christian Church not because they've evaluated scripture versus other beliefs and found it to be true, but rather they were simply raised in the Christian Church and that's what they're comfortable with, so they're sticking to it. Rather than introspection and truly changing their life, it's far easier to hit the mark pretty darn close most of the time, and go to church once a week and listen to a preacher rant for an hour about the the failings of others for an hour or so, then go home back to your normal life. There are churches where it's more about patting yourself on the back than weeding out your own flaws. This, I think, it not Christ-like.
  4. We, as Christians, have used the 'Grace' concept as a cop out. In fact, I really associate this with some of my experiences with this Baptist Church in my youth. (I was raised Methodist, but had many Baptist friends.) The Baptist Church would have huge weekly devotionals for the town's youth, and like any good Baptist Church, never missed the opportunity for an alter call at the end of the service. One of the big selling points was that all you had to do for salvation was ask for Christ to enter your heart, and His Grace is all that is needed for salvation. While I don't doubt that, I think this has created a consequence-free sort of Christianity. While I don't believe 'good works' can offer salvation, I do think the Grace principle has made many 'act now, ask forgiveness later' Christians. Once again, this ties in strongly to point number one, but I think it's worth mentioning on it's own. 
  5. Relative Morality The concept that was is right for one person isn't necessarily right for another, etc, etc. I'm all for tolerating other belief systems. Like I said, we shouldn't legislate Christianity, it should be desired for it's own benefits. But that said, there is good, there is evil. There is right, and there is wrong. What's difficult, sometimes, is discerning what belongs where. There are gray areas. And how do we know which is which?
  6. And lastly, Christians Judge Others. A lot. Jesus knew that cheating others was wrong. Yet he still sat with the tax collectors who were often times very willing to skim a little personal profit off the top. You're not going to win flocks to Christ by telling them they're going to hell. You're not going to show Christ's love and compassion by damning others to fire and torment. And you certainly won't convert them by protesting at their functions, mocking their beliefs. If anything, you're giving them one more reason to dislike Christians. And it only takes a very small handful to ruin it for the rest of us. It only takes one bad experience to turn someone sour to God forever. What service have we done to ourselves or God when, instead of giving charity to non Christians, love, friendship, and compassion to them, we simply criticize them of their shortcomings? No service whatsoever, that's what. Christians are especially judgmental of those things they don't understand. We aren't exactly sure what that other belief is, but we're sure it's not in the New Testament, so it must be from the devil! I don't need to study it, I know it's evil!
I'm probably going to expound on each of these points later, maybe even giving each one it's own separate post. I don't know. Depends on where my thoughts go between now and the next time I post. 

But I do think all these things are curable, and fixable. But the terribly hard part is I don't believe any of this can be fixed by any 'revival', even if the aging Billy Graham himself were to come down and lead it. Ultimately it starts at the individual level with the singular Christian. And we're all flawed. I certainly have miles to go. That's what all the introspection has revealed to me! It's convicted me on how much further I have to go in my walk with Christ, and that I ought to use whatever shortcomings I see in the church as guidelines on how I need to grow - for I probably have many, if not all, of the same shortcomings - rather than a criticism to keep using as an excuse. So I think I ought to do some soul searching. 

In what areas is my life not imitating Christ's? What a frightening question for Christians to ask ourselves.

Thursday, December 16, 2010

What is Virtue?

Question put forth, what is it? Is it set in stone, concrete? Something that cannot be changed? Black and white? Are there gray areas? Is it something personal or something societal? Why do one person's most cherished virtues not mean anything in another? Why are some people so lacking in introspection that they don't, seemingly, have any set of virtues? Or why might they have a firm set of virtues for dealing with their public life, yet have none concerning their private life?

I know what my virtues are, and I try my best to live my life by them. What I don't understand are those who seem to have no virtues. To me, it seems that, if you can't define who you are by rules you choose to accept (free will being a vital component), then your life has no meaning. After all, life has no meaning beyond that which we grant it. If we dedicate our lives to service, God, and our fellow man, then therein lies our reason for life. But if we dedicate ourselves to nothing, or to self pleasure, then what is your purpose? One of pure Epicureanism?

I simply do not understand those who haven't chosen to define themselves, not to prove to others who they are, but rather simply to understand themselves at a most basic and fundamental level.

Thursday, December 9, 2010

My Continuing Masonic Journey and Future Uncertainty

Turned in my Masters proficiency tonight. That's a good feeling! It wasn't nearly the quality of my previous two proficiencies, which meant it was about at the level most people turn in their work. Not bragging, I'm just a perfectionist. Kind of killed me to leave it how it was, but I suppose I have many more years to clean it up. I'm young and spry!

This does leave me with a number of options ahead of me. I can now petition for any of the appendent bodies of Masonry in the area, which in the panhandle all three primary bodies are present; York Rite, Scottish Rite, and Shrine. I know that I'm interested in all three, but certainly not all three at once, certainly not without a real income.

Add to that the uncertainty of where I'll be in a year and a half's time. I should be finishing my Masters of Arts in Music at WTAMU in Summer 2012, at which point I will be frantically applying for jobs. I'm not really worried about getting a job, as I will be very marketable with good references, a strong background of actual experience and two degrees. So finding a job isn't my concern. However, where I'll end up is what I sometimes worry about.

In my dream world, CISD would finally be able to hire a fifth director at CHS, that percussion specialist they've been talking about off and on for several years now but never quite have the budget/numbers for. Realistically? I highly doubt it will happen. But I can dream. And pray. I prayed it would happen this fall, or that I would be lead by the Lord in a better direction in my life, and at first I severely disappointed: CISD hiring freeze for fall 2011. But then I finally had a chance to sit down and talk to Dr. Brooks, my graduate advisor, and I found out that I would have the ability to graduate with a Master's degree in a year and a half with some work. This is truly an example of God having better things in store for you that you can't yet imagine, and why we as Masons are admonished to invoke the aid of Deity before any great undertaking. While I was initially disappointed, things worked out honestly better than I could have expected.

Anyway, all that is to say, if I petition and join one body, which one would be the best fit knowing I don't know where I'll end up in a year and a half's time?

I think I've written off the Shrine, mainly because of it's nature. Shrine centers are large but few, and I may end up an hour's drive or longer away from the nearest Shrine center once I get a job. While they do wonderful charitable work (particularly through the Shriner's Hospitals for Children), they are, at the end of the day, primarily a social/charitable club. Their focus isn't on esoteric work but friendship, mirth, charity, etc. And like I said, if I move away from any nearby Shrine centers, I would miss out on the entire social aspect, and that's a huge portion of what the Shrine does. The other aspect, charitable, I can contribute to financially regardless of membership. (Information on donations here.) So no, I think my time to wear the Fez will come, but not for awhile yet, when I'm more settled in my life.

That leaves me torn between the Scottish Rite and the York Rite.

The Scottish Rite is often referred to as the 'University of Freemasonry' as it's 29 degrees all expand on the moral and philosophical teachings of basic Freemasonry. Because it has so many degrees and because they're often presented in dramatic format (like a play, often in the form of a morality tale) their meetings, or 'Reunions' as they're called, only happen a few times a year, and not always geographically near you. So it does tend to require travel up front. But I'm more willing to travel to a two or three day event with many degrees, dinners, and meetings, interacting with brothers from all over the state, than I would be to travel to a Shrine center to participate in a weekly club meeting. Things are simply on a different scale.

Of course, the downside to the Scottish Rite is that it does require some travel, which can be costly no matter how cheap you go, and for a poor college student that can be debilitating. A three hundred dollar weekend, while a moderate expense for a teacher, is debilitating to someone scraping through his Master's degree at WT. So while I'm interested, I'm not entirely sure if I want to go that route just yet.

Honestly, I'm predisposed to petitioning the York Rite. While is technically petitioning three independent bodies, several of my lodge friends are member's of the Amarillo York Rite, so I know I would have friends going into it. It's located close by (in Amarillo). Plus it has the advantage of being divided into much smaller subgroups - Chapters, Councils, and Commanderies - which are roughly the size of a lodge typically, sometimes slightly larger. As a result, there are many more York Rite bodies in the state of Texas than Scottish Rite or Shrine, both of which pull in Masons from many lodges into larger conglomerate groups that will often have thousands of members. The advantage of those pooled resources is evident in buildings, costuming for degrees, and overall fewer financial woes. The disadvantage I have spoken on before - geography.

On top of that, the York Rite culminates in the Commandery, which is modeled after the chivalric orders of the middle ages. The Commandery itself is for those who will swear 'to defend the Christian faith,' making it the only religious specific organization in Masonry. (That I'm aware of.) And to boot, my sponsor in Canyon Lodge #730 is currently the Right Eminent Grand Commander of Texas. Amarillo has one of the strongest York Right bodies in Texas, so part of me says petition now while the petitioning is good! Of the three bodies, York Rite is the one I'm mostly likely going to be able to continue no matter where I go. So, I don't know. Decisions.

Oh, by the way, I graduate with my Bachelor's Degree in Music Friday December 17th at 2:30. That's a bright spot in the uncertain times of my life right now.

I'll leave you with this. A beautiful picture of yours truly in my apron. Immediately following the CHS Band Winter Concert. That's why I look so tired. You're welcome, world.

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