Friday, December 31, 2010

Colman McCarthy - Still an Idiot

Colman McCarthy is a journalist, pacifist, and anarchist. His Wikipedia entry (he deserves one?) can be found here. I don't really know that I agree with the man on anything other than the sky being blue.

Honestly, pacifism, the preference to peace over war, isn't such an objectionable idea to me. Wasn't it Robert E. Lee who said, "It is good that war is so terrible - lest we grow too fond of it."?

But that said, most pacifists I have ever met have a distinct disconnection with reality. They seem to think that if only we would eliminate the military and hold hands and sing, that bad guys would cease being bad, that other nations and peoples would stop trying to use force to get what they want, and we'd be able to find a diplomatic solution to everything. That's simply not realistic. It is in human nature to lie and deceive. To try and force one's will upon others when you have the upper hand. It's an ugly part of humanity, one that most of us spend our lives trying to overcome. But it's there. Despite the fact that almost all of the world's great religious leaders preached peace, it still happens. It's part of the human condition.

I think there are very few people who believe war is good. Perhaps the defense contractors. I don't know. But most rational people acknowledge that it is, at times, necessary, even though it's terrible.

All that is to say, many university campuses, particularly the Ivy League schools, had long ago - mostly during Vietnam - eliminated the ROTC groups on their campuses, largely because of the very strong anti war demonstrations of the Vietnam era. Since then, many of them have kept the bans in place, often times because they have university policies against 'discriminatory undergraduate student groups', which they applied to the ROTC because of Don't Ask Don't Tell. It largely didn't affect them since, as private universities, they weren't receiving a whole lot of Federal funds anyway. Most of their finances were provided through endowments.

Now that DADT is in the process of formal repeal and gays are now allowed to openly serve in the military, the universities who have used DADT as a leg to continue their ROTC ban are beginning to find themselves under pressure to reinstitute their ROTC programs. To which some strong pacifists have objections, as can be seen below.

Colman McCarthy - 'Don't ask, don't tell' has been repealed. ROTC still shouldn't be on campus.:

"To oppose ROTC, as I have since my college days in the 1960s, when my school enticed too many of my classmates into joining, is not to be anti-soldier. I admire those who join armies, whether America's or the Taliban's: for their discipline, for their loyalty to their buddies and to their principles, for their sacrifices to be away from home. In recent years, I've had several Iraq and Afghanistan combat veterans in my college classes. If only the peace movement were as populated by people of such resolve and daring.

ROTC and its warrior ethic taint the intellectual purity of a school, if by purity we mean trying to rise above the foul idea that nations can kill and destroy their way to peace. If a school such as Harvard does sell out to the military, let it at least be honest and add a sign at its Cambridge front portal: Harvard, a Pentagon Annex."

Yes, because soldiers in the US military are exactly like soldiers in the Taliban. Trying to keep their women wearing burqas, establish a theocracy in America, than kind of stuff. Except, no. Wait. They're pretty much opposites and to compare the two is offensive at best. Yes, I understand Taliban soldiers are humans with feelings who believe in what they're fighting for, than it takes commitment and bravery. The difference is, Taliban soldiers are fighting for an ideal I, and all Americans, should find repugnant. They fight for the opposite of liberty, for tyranny and absolute control over peoples lives, enforced by the sword. That is why they don't deserve any respect.

It's honestly ironic to me that someone so pacifistic and falling under what I would typically consider the progressive ethos would do anything but despise these sort of Taliban groups. In his article, McCarthy spoke the virtues of peace studies, minority studies, and women's studies at the universities in question. Doesn't believing in those ideals make the ideals of aforementioned groups absolutely reprehensible?

What does it mean then, when you compare our US military to those groups?

Good to know that our men serve to protect McCarthy's syndicated column. Free Speech for all, even the foolish.

Wednesday, December 29, 2010

Cuisinart DBM-8 Supreme Grind Automatic Burr Mill

This was one of the gifts I received this Christmas, graciously from my Honey Bunny. I just used it for the first time, and I have to say, wow! As a warning, I've never used a coffee grinder of any sort before, I've always bought pre ground coffee. So, this may not be the best coffee grinder in the world, I don't know, I'm not a grinder connoisseur. However, that said, I'm very impressed. The grind was definitely more consistent than any commercially ground coffee I've ever had. And the flavor was leaps and bounds better than commercial coffee! It'll be hard to ever go back. I never knew the toll oxidation took on the beans until now. 

It has a slew of nice features:
  • Bur grinding, which is more consistent than blade grinding, with rarer replacement of bits.
  • Relatively simple design and few moving parts, making it durable and easy to clean.
  • Quick to grind.
  • There is a selector which allows you to set how many cups you want to make. Then pour in whole beans, and the grinder does the measuring.
  • Relatively air tight lid for storage of extra beans.
  • You can how fine or coarse you want the grind to be, making it ideal for everything from espresso, to drip coffee, to French press.
  • Did I mention freshly ground beans taste a million times better than pre ground beans from the store?
Only drawback I've noticed so far (after one use) is that it is incredibly loud. You might wake the baby. But with that in mind, I'm very impressed. Definitely changed my coffee experience for the better.

Find out more details about it on Amazon here.


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The Antikythera Mechanism With A Twist

Doesn't have much to do with any of my recent posts except that it's really cool, and I like anything lego. Having almost no knowledge of engineering, I can't say I totally understand the math within the gears concept, but fascinating nonetheless.

Monday, December 20, 2010

The Manslator

Because I'd hate to accidentally have two deep, philosophical posts in a row, I'll interject this to cleanse the mental pallet.

Saturday, December 18, 2010

On Christianity

Let me start out by saying, I am a Christian. I consider myself non-denominational. Let me also state that I am barely twenty-three years old in this world, and the church has been around for almost two thousand years. I realize this. I probably don't have the greatest, wisest perspective on things. I certainly know I'm no Biblical scholar, nor do I claim to be. But I have a number of thoughts and observations that I think have some level of validity that I want to expound on, be it for criticism, or simply my own introspection. Hopefully I'll light a few fires of introspection in others as well.

Sometimes, The Mind Is Roundabout 


Often times, my beloved girlfriend challenges me about things. Well, everything really. And that's ok. It's wonderful, really. I may not always think it at the time, but I am blessed to have someone who won't let me sit on my laurels and assume I know all about everything. It's good for me to have my world shaken at times.

Often times she challenges me about my association with Freemasonry, with questions that I can usually answer, though not always, and not always to her satisfaction. This sometimes constant barrage keeps me on my toes, and constantly learning so that I truly know what I am speaking about, not simply assuming for my own convenience.

One of her challenges recently was a venting of frustration that I seemed to be very fired up about Freemasonry, more so than I talk about God or my faith. I didn't have much of an answer at the time, which inevitably led to introspection. I think one of my saving graces, despite all my flaws, is that I must always know the 'Why?' to everything. Yes, I was 'that kid.' So, when I'm challenged with something to which I don't immediately have an answer, it frustrates me to know end. Sometimes to the point of angering me at myself for not reasoning things out sooner. Seriously, it makes me mad.

So I asked myself, why is it that one has me so fired up as of late, yet the other I hardly speak about? While my Christian beliefs have certainly altered while I've been in college, Freemasonry has had nothing to do with it. I don't find one in conflict over the other. I do believe that my relationship with God is ultimately the most important relationship in the world, over any fraternity. So why was one preoccupying my mind? I came to several conclusions.


  1. Freemasonry is the 'new' thing in my life. This is certainly a contributing factor. Just like on Christmas morning when you unwrap that new novel, firetruck, Batman action figure, or what have you, and that item is on your mind for quite some time. While it's overall a human trend, it's definitely a boy trend. Then of guys and their gadgets. If they have a new toy that's revolutionized their life, they have to show it to everyone so that everyone can know how useful it would be to have this new digital wonder! Etc. So, it's still new to me. It's shiny. The 'honeymoon isn't over' as the saying goes. (I don't really like that saying, but that's another discussion.) And as a result, I'm reverting back to my 8 year old boy mode, and showing off my new toy to the world. Yes, that's dumbing it down, but it's true, to one extent or another.
  2. I've found a new level of discussion with other Masons. It's a level of discussion I haven't found elsewhere. It's deeply introspective, which is something most youth lack. Something I crave. Most twenty-three year olds can't see the future past their next kegger on the weekend. I'm not that kind of twenty-three year old. I want to contemplate the meaning of life. The nature of God. Philosophy, morality, ethics. Granted, when I attend lodge, that's not typical day to day discussion. But Masons are inherently symbolic people, and attach deep meaning to most everything in life. Especially their rituals. (Which, contrary to what many would tell you, are inherently Christian in nature. Symbolically, of course.)
  3. I don't feel that I know of a church where I feel at home right now. Now, this is where I'm a bit convicted. I've visited around some, but I certainly haven't visited every church in the area, and I haven't given them all a fair shake. And you know, I'll probably never find the 'perfect' church that I envision in my mind, and I'm coming to grips with that. Honestly, a big part of it is separation from Sharon. I don't like going to church without her. I want to share my spiritual life with her, and it sometimes feels incomplete without her. I know she probably doesn't feel this way at times. I'm a pain in the butt. (If you're reading, sorry for being a butt-pain honey!) But, she's such an important part of my life, I want her to be there with me. And I deeply value her insight into Biblical knowledge, even when I'm a total butt-pain about it. 
All Of This Got Me A Thinkin'


I started wondering what it was that has turned me off from particular churches. What were things I valued in certain churches, and what were things I disliked about particular churches I've visited. And of course, that not being enough for me, for I have to increase the difficult in every aspect of my life, I started thinking on a bigger scale, regarding Christianity as a whole. What out there appeals to me/seems right in my mind? What doesn't sit right with what I know of Christ, written in the Bible, the Word of God? Maybe this is a trite way to evaluate things, but I think to some extent I am a bit of the everyman, and this is what the world is seeing in the church right now, and why it is having problems.

[Let me be clear, I do not believe the problem is Christianity. Rather, I believe it's in the people practicing it. I think Christ laid out a perfect plan for our lives and relationship with God, and it is our combined failings as Christians that is the problem, not Christ's teachings.

Also, caveat that these are general observations. This isn't personally attacking anyone. It's thoughts about an entire culture.]


  1. Many Christians profess a belief that does not affect their everyday lives. I hesitated to put this first on this list. It doesn't make good authorial sense to do so, as I think it's the greatest single problem, so logically I should place it at the end and make you work your way to it, right? Seriously, though. I know many who proclaim to be a member of one denomination or another, and - from their actions - I would never guess they associate with a Christian Church. Especially people of my generation. Perhaps this is more indicative of my generation's culture than the church. It's sometimes hard to differentiate correlation from causation. But there are many tenants that Christ himself spoke that not only go ignored by many Christians, but is often times outright suppressed. Christs message was 99% love, humility, compassion, charity, and devotion to God. Yes, he overturned the tables of the moneylenders in the Temple. It was God's house. But did he not always welcome anyone who sought him and his guidance? 
  2. Christians are trying to impose their beliefs on others rather than selling them by their own merit. The constant legal batters over so many issues in the world today are the symptoms of this problem. Instead of trying to convince others to do something because it is the virtuous, moral, or Godly thing to do, they simply try to gain a simple majority and outlaw a thing in their city/state. That's a lot easier than upholding a belief system on it's own values. Especially when some of those beliefs are dubious. I think one of the most important tenants in Christianity, or any belief system, is that someone chooses to follow its principles. Morals by law are tyranny. Morals by choice are philosophy. The Great Commission asked us to makes disciples among men, and to, "teach them to obey everything I have commanded you." It didn't saying anything about outlawing other beliefs or ways of life to make our own little Christian utopia. No, we were to go out into the world and convince people of Christianity's virtue on it's own merit, as individuals. We need to quit trying to legislate our religion. 
  3. Christianity has become a culture, no longer a religion to many people.  This one is difficult to differentiate from the first. But it seems that many are withing the Christian Church not because they've evaluated scripture versus other beliefs and found it to be true, but rather they were simply raised in the Christian Church and that's what they're comfortable with, so they're sticking to it. Rather than introspection and truly changing their life, it's far easier to hit the mark pretty darn close most of the time, and go to church once a week and listen to a preacher rant for an hour about the the failings of others for an hour or so, then go home back to your normal life. There are churches where it's more about patting yourself on the back than weeding out your own flaws. This, I think, it not Christ-like.
  4. We, as Christians, have used the 'Grace' concept as a cop out. In fact, I really associate this with some of my experiences with this Baptist Church in my youth. (I was raised Methodist, but had many Baptist friends.) The Baptist Church would have huge weekly devotionals for the town's youth, and like any good Baptist Church, never missed the opportunity for an alter call at the end of the service. One of the big selling points was that all you had to do for salvation was ask for Christ to enter your heart, and His Grace is all that is needed for salvation. While I don't doubt that, I think this has created a consequence-free sort of Christianity. While I don't believe 'good works' can offer salvation, I do think the Grace principle has made many 'act now, ask forgiveness later' Christians. Once again, this ties in strongly to point number one, but I think it's worth mentioning on it's own. 
  5. Relative Morality The concept that was is right for one person isn't necessarily right for another, etc, etc. I'm all for tolerating other belief systems. Like I said, we shouldn't legislate Christianity, it should be desired for it's own benefits. But that said, there is good, there is evil. There is right, and there is wrong. What's difficult, sometimes, is discerning what belongs where. There are gray areas. And how do we know which is which?
  6. And lastly, Christians Judge Others. A lot. Jesus knew that cheating others was wrong. Yet he still sat with the tax collectors who were often times very willing to skim a little personal profit off the top. You're not going to win flocks to Christ by telling them they're going to hell. You're not going to show Christ's love and compassion by damning others to fire and torment. And you certainly won't convert them by protesting at their functions, mocking their beliefs. If anything, you're giving them one more reason to dislike Christians. And it only takes a very small handful to ruin it for the rest of us. It only takes one bad experience to turn someone sour to God forever. What service have we done to ourselves or God when, instead of giving charity to non Christians, love, friendship, and compassion to them, we simply criticize them of their shortcomings? No service whatsoever, that's what. Christians are especially judgmental of those things they don't understand. We aren't exactly sure what that other belief is, but we're sure it's not in the New Testament, so it must be from the devil! I don't need to study it, I know it's evil!
I'm probably going to expound on each of these points later, maybe even giving each one it's own separate post. I don't know. Depends on where my thoughts go between now and the next time I post. 

But I do think all these things are curable, and fixable. But the terribly hard part is I don't believe any of this can be fixed by any 'revival', even if the aging Billy Graham himself were to come down and lead it. Ultimately it starts at the individual level with the singular Christian. And we're all flawed. I certainly have miles to go. That's what all the introspection has revealed to me! It's convicted me on how much further I have to go in my walk with Christ, and that I ought to use whatever shortcomings I see in the church as guidelines on how I need to grow - for I probably have many, if not all, of the same shortcomings - rather than a criticism to keep using as an excuse. So I think I ought to do some soul searching. 

In what areas is my life not imitating Christ's? What a frightening question for Christians to ask ourselves.

Thursday, December 16, 2010

What is Virtue?

Question put forth, what is it? Is it set in stone, concrete? Something that cannot be changed? Black and white? Are there gray areas? Is it something personal or something societal? Why do one person's most cherished virtues not mean anything in another? Why are some people so lacking in introspection that they don't, seemingly, have any set of virtues? Or why might they have a firm set of virtues for dealing with their public life, yet have none concerning their private life?

I know what my virtues are, and I try my best to live my life by them. What I don't understand are those who seem to have no virtues. To me, it seems that, if you can't define who you are by rules you choose to accept (free will being a vital component), then your life has no meaning. After all, life has no meaning beyond that which we grant it. If we dedicate our lives to service, God, and our fellow man, then therein lies our reason for life. But if we dedicate ourselves to nothing, or to self pleasure, then what is your purpose? One of pure Epicureanism?

I simply do not understand those who haven't chosen to define themselves, not to prove to others who they are, but rather simply to understand themselves at a most basic and fundamental level.

Thursday, December 9, 2010

My Continuing Masonic Journey and Future Uncertainty

Turned in my Masters proficiency tonight. That's a good feeling! It wasn't nearly the quality of my previous two proficiencies, which meant it was about at the level most people turn in their work. Not bragging, I'm just a perfectionist. Kind of killed me to leave it how it was, but I suppose I have many more years to clean it up. I'm young and spry!

This does leave me with a number of options ahead of me. I can now petition for any of the appendent bodies of Masonry in the area, which in the panhandle all three primary bodies are present; York Rite, Scottish Rite, and Shrine. I know that I'm interested in all three, but certainly not all three at once, certainly not without a real income.

Add to that the uncertainty of where I'll be in a year and a half's time. I should be finishing my Masters of Arts in Music at WTAMU in Summer 2012, at which point I will be frantically applying for jobs. I'm not really worried about getting a job, as I will be very marketable with good references, a strong background of actual experience and two degrees. So finding a job isn't my concern. However, where I'll end up is what I sometimes worry about.

In my dream world, CISD would finally be able to hire a fifth director at CHS, that percussion specialist they've been talking about off and on for several years now but never quite have the budget/numbers for. Realistically? I highly doubt it will happen. But I can dream. And pray. I prayed it would happen this fall, or that I would be lead by the Lord in a better direction in my life, and at first I severely disappointed: CISD hiring freeze for fall 2011. But then I finally had a chance to sit down and talk to Dr. Brooks, my graduate advisor, and I found out that I would have the ability to graduate with a Master's degree in a year and a half with some work. This is truly an example of God having better things in store for you that you can't yet imagine, and why we as Masons are admonished to invoke the aid of Deity before any great undertaking. While I was initially disappointed, things worked out honestly better than I could have expected.

Anyway, all that is to say, if I petition and join one body, which one would be the best fit knowing I don't know where I'll end up in a year and a half's time?

I think I've written off the Shrine, mainly because of it's nature. Shrine centers are large but few, and I may end up an hour's drive or longer away from the nearest Shrine center once I get a job. While they do wonderful charitable work (particularly through the Shriner's Hospitals for Children), they are, at the end of the day, primarily a social/charitable club. Their focus isn't on esoteric work but friendship, mirth, charity, etc. And like I said, if I move away from any nearby Shrine centers, I would miss out on the entire social aspect, and that's a huge portion of what the Shrine does. The other aspect, charitable, I can contribute to financially regardless of membership. (Information on donations here.) So no, I think my time to wear the Fez will come, but not for awhile yet, when I'm more settled in my life.

That leaves me torn between the Scottish Rite and the York Rite.

The Scottish Rite is often referred to as the 'University of Freemasonry' as it's 29 degrees all expand on the moral and philosophical teachings of basic Freemasonry. Because it has so many degrees and because they're often presented in dramatic format (like a play, often in the form of a morality tale) their meetings, or 'Reunions' as they're called, only happen a few times a year, and not always geographically near you. So it does tend to require travel up front. But I'm more willing to travel to a two or three day event with many degrees, dinners, and meetings, interacting with brothers from all over the state, than I would be to travel to a Shrine center to participate in a weekly club meeting. Things are simply on a different scale.

Of course, the downside to the Scottish Rite is that it does require some travel, which can be costly no matter how cheap you go, and for a poor college student that can be debilitating. A three hundred dollar weekend, while a moderate expense for a teacher, is debilitating to someone scraping through his Master's degree at WT. So while I'm interested, I'm not entirely sure if I want to go that route just yet.

Honestly, I'm predisposed to petitioning the York Rite. While is technically petitioning three independent bodies, several of my lodge friends are member's of the Amarillo York Rite, so I know I would have friends going into it. It's located close by (in Amarillo). Plus it has the advantage of being divided into much smaller subgroups - Chapters, Councils, and Commanderies - which are roughly the size of a lodge typically, sometimes slightly larger. As a result, there are many more York Rite bodies in the state of Texas than Scottish Rite or Shrine, both of which pull in Masons from many lodges into larger conglomerate groups that will often have thousands of members. The advantage of those pooled resources is evident in buildings, costuming for degrees, and overall fewer financial woes. The disadvantage I have spoken on before - geography.

On top of that, the York Rite culminates in the Commandery, which is modeled after the chivalric orders of the middle ages. The Commandery itself is for those who will swear 'to defend the Christian faith,' making it the only religious specific organization in Masonry. (That I'm aware of.) And to boot, my sponsor in Canyon Lodge #730 is currently the Right Eminent Grand Commander of Texas. Amarillo has one of the strongest York Right bodies in Texas, so part of me says petition now while the petitioning is good! Of the three bodies, York Rite is the one I'm mostly likely going to be able to continue no matter where I go. So, I don't know. Decisions.

Oh, by the way, I graduate with my Bachelor's Degree in Music Friday December 17th at 2:30. That's a bright spot in the uncertain times of my life right now.

I'll leave you with this. A beautiful picture of yours truly in my apron. Immediately following the CHS Band Winter Concert. That's why I look so tired. You're welcome, world.

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Wednesday, November 24, 2010

Twenty Third Birthday

Today was my twenty third birthday on November 23rd, 2010. At 11:23 Sharon wanted me to make a wish. I did. :)

I don't usually do much for my birthday. Today was, for the most part, Tuesday. And not the best Tuesday in recent memory for that matter, but it did press some real life issues to the forefront. I wish it could have waited until not my birthday, but beggars can't be choosers. I'd rather poor news now that I can alter my plans around than no news later so I'm caught off guard.

One of my students was, however, kind enough to give me a gift. I received, wrapped up all purdy in a bag (the background of the below picture) a can of hairspray and some spray on glitter. Note to any other aspiring teachers, don't tease your students about something all semester long, because it'll come back to bite you in the butt.

I mean, I can't complain completely, she also got me cupcakes. And who knows, maybe I'll actually need a bottle of silver spray glitter that says "Sexy" on the front in the near future? She might just end up saving my tail someday.

Ok, well probably not. But it's the thought that counts, right?


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Only about six more days left of student teaching. Kind of frightening. 

Have a meeting with WT's Graduate Program advisor for Music before I head to Midland tomorrow. Hopefully that goes well. If it doesn't... eh, I need some good news after today. I'm just going to pray that it does go well. 

Wednesday, November 17, 2010

Our Eroding Civil Liberties

This article gives an excellent example of why libertarianism is a small, but slowly spreading, movement in the US. It's truly the only logical place for politics to go, what with Federal Government on a binge power grab. A government only has the right to rule so long as it has the consent of the governed, and the US Federal Government I think is rapidly losing favor in the eyes of many Americans.


Excerpt:


One of the most disturbing, which is subject to an ongoing lawsuit, involved a 21-year-old college student from Amarillo Texas. The woman was passing through security at Corpus Christi airport on May 29 2008 when she was subjected to “extended search procedures” by the TSA.
“As the TSA agent was frisking plaintiff, the agent pulled the plaintiff’s blouse completely down, exposing plaintiffs’ breasts to everyone in the area,” the lawsuit said. “As would be expected, plaintiff was extremely embarrassed and humiliated.”


I would be fascinated to know how many bad guys the TSA's screening methods has truly caught. I strongly suspect the number to be close to zero. Then compare that to the number of people they've violated, and I bet you could plot some very, very interesting graphs.


Also, another interesting editorial pushing for the outright abolishment of the TSA, which honestly, makes a lot of fiscal. Airlines have an extremely strong incentive to keep their flights safe, and if the TSA disappeared, they'd have to cover their own tails or risk losing all business. I'm willing to be the airlines would find many cheaper, more effect, less offensive security measures than the TSA, and it wouldn't waste my tax dollars. I mean, we are in incredible debt peril anyway, right? Scrap the TSA entirely. 


From the article:


Bipartisan support should be immediate.  For fiscal conservatives, it’s hard to come up with a more wasteful agency than the TSA.  For privacy advocates, eliminating an organization that requires you to choose between a nude body scan or genital groping in order to board a plane should be a no-brainer.

Monday, November 15, 2010

My Masonic Edifice and Graduate School

So, as I've struggled to turn in my Masters work this past few months, I've come to realize that my profession isn't exactly generous with free time. It's probably not the best in terms of compatibility with a busy Masonic schedule. Which is definitely frustrating. I wish I could be more active at my lodge, and I hope I'm able to squeeze in time for the appendant bodies in the future.

But then I realize the influence Masonry has had on me and, by extension, will have on my students, for the better, and I realize that all the time is worthwhile. I have a lifetime of Masonic Education ahead of me, and while that will certainly impact all other auto didactic pursuits that I have, in the end it will truly be worthwhile.

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As an aside, a little note of frustration. The $25.00 application fee for the WTAMU Graduate School annoyed me, mainly because I've been paying WT tuition for four and a half years now. But whatever, it's only $25.00 right?

Well, apparently policy has changed and I'm now required to re-audition for the Graduate School of Music, something no graduate student before now has had to do. (To my knowledge.) This is frustrating to say the least. I saw my private instructor of the last four years who said we could work something out, and I hope this is true, as I don't in any way have time to prepare a full and proper audition any time soon; student teaching is too time consuming!

But really, I've had the same private teacher for four years, she knows my capabilities. They have my GPA and course record, they know my academic capabilities. Do they really doubt my sincerity in entering upon graduate work? Kind of frustrating, but hopefully only a minor setback. Until I know for certain, I'm not going to lose sleep over it.

Tuesday, November 2, 2010

To The Young Men in the Masonic Fraternity

There are many things for you to consider very seriously. You have not been made Masons because you were specimens of gravity, for that is often the cover to genteel stupidity or respectable dullness. Volatility and gaiety add nothing to one's chances, but greatly diminish them. In spite of them, you have been admitted, for beneath them, sterling principles of integrity are often found. If the committees have done their duty, you have been found to be men, physically, believers in God, of upright and moral character, and of good sound mind; you have been found fit material for some place in the Masonic edifice. This is no small complement to you. But all the while bear in mind that this does not prove you infallible or perfect. You may be found, upon inspection, unfit for the building, and you may be refused further progress, or be tolerated as a choice for evils.

If you follow Masonic teachings, you are to learn to subdue your passions. Gain complete mastery over yourself -- such mastery that the passions implanted in man for useful, beneficent and defensive purposes, may be at your command for good uses, and thoroughly submissive and obedient to your reason and good will. Let them have no dominion over you -- in solitude, among people, or under surprise -- but keep constant control over them.

You are also to improve yourself in Masonry. The meaning of this is both practical and symbolical. Practically, that you are to be so skilled in its arts and mysteries as to make yourself known as a Mason, while this skill acts as help to memory, order, system, and mental training. The Mason who has carefully observed our ceremonies, and studied Masonic principles, is much better qualified to preside over public assemblies, or to rule bodies of men, than another of equal natural ability who has enjoined no such advantages.

It is not the intention of Masonry to train you for a partisan in politics, religion, or anything else. There are certain things in politics and religion in "which all good men agree." As a Mason, and per consequence, a good man, you are so far partisan in reasonable moderation. Masonry does not debar you from partisanship. But it forbids the use of violent, corrupt, or unlawful means or measures; for these or any of them prove your cause to be week, unworthy or wicked. Keep your garments unsoiled. The time will come when such a noble reputation will speak volumes in your favor. Commence honestly and honorably in all things, and keep on so, in prosperity and adversity, to the end. At the end of every canvass, and every contest, let Masons be able to take each other by the hand and say, "In all my partisanship, in all my business, in every battle of life, I have said no word and done no thing dishonorable or dishonest." Perfection is no man's lot. The principle of every invention is perfect; but no man ever promulgated an invention so perfect as to be incapable if improvement. You may err sometimes. Stand on no assumed dignity in case of error or wrong; you weaken yourself and your cause by so doing. Repair whatever error you may commit or wrong you may do, to the extent of your power. While you may suffer in your own self-respect, you will at least maintain your character for sincerity and honor, which is better than gold. And let all this be done manfully and above-board, and not abjectly or stealthily. But better that all this, let their be no occasion for it.

As a Mason, you are a counselor, an advocate, a judge. Strong measures are sometimes necessary and justifiable against a Brother; but in nine cases out of ten, there is a "more excellent way." Good counsel, tenderly and lovingly given, may prove to be "apples of gold in pictures of silver." Temper judgment with mercy, support the weak, reclaim the erring, and guide the stranger in the right way.

Bear in mind, young Brethren, that you are soon to be the rulers and governors of our noble Craft; also, that the young men are to be the citizens and rulers of this mighty Nation. And at this point you reach the Symbolical uses of Masonry. Study them in your Masonic bodies; study them from our written and oral teachings; study them from the great Book of Inspiration; study them from the volumes of nature; and from the good and bad lives of your fellow men. Respect and revere the religious teacher and religious teachings, but follow your own honest, well-matured convictions. Tolerate every man in his opinions, but resolutely maintain your own. Let every man worship in his own way, as he pleases; but agreeably to your professions, do you worship God, and Him only. Trust Him, rely on His promises, and keep His commandments, and you will not only be a just and upright Mason, but it will be well with you in the end.

Published by the Committee on Education and Service of the Grand Lodge of Texas, A.F.&A.M. (1925-1930)


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Emphasis mine. The bolded paragraph is one of my favorite things I've read in awhile. Maybe all year. Something we all can improve on, especially anyone in a leadership role, or more especially that of educator.


 And perhaps in some way, that is what I feel my calling to be in education. 

Thursday, October 28, 2010

What a Wonderful Day!

Today marked two wonderful years with Sharon Salmon, my Honey Bunny! She managed to find the time to come and visit me this week so we could be together on our two year anniversary, despite me still having to teach, the week before our last marching contest of the season no less! It was wonderful seeing her, and I can't wait until I see her again.

But today was wonderful for many other reasons. The high school band had a phenomenal rehearsal today, just the kind you want the last couple days of the season. I think they're going to be very successful at the ZIA marching festival. Will it be trophy winning successful? I don't know, that's up to the kids. But as far as I'm concerned the amount of musical improvement they've made the past two weeks is success enough for the season, regardless of how placements and trophies turn out.

I also was observed today. I'll spare this blog the details, but it went very, very well. It was the perfect encouragement I needed at this point in the semester. I was just starting to feel very, very burnt out. But it's amazing what some honest approval and constructive criticism can do for the spirit. Something to take note of while teaching students!

I also received word that a friend of my is petitioning Canyon Masonic Lodge #730 for membership, though it was totally unknown to me that he was seeking membership. While I missed the actual stated meeting for the month tonight, it was good to hear that good men are seeking to becoming better men in Masonry. I truly think we're on the verge of a Masonic revival as my generation starts to reject the superficialities of our culture in favor of a life more deep in meaning and spirituality. I also think the Masonic Lodge is the perfect place for men to seek that deeper meaning of life. And with marching season almost over, I can spend more time at the Lodge, which I very much miss.

So yes, it's been an amazing day. Thanks life! I needed this one. :)

Saturday, October 2, 2010

Not Enough Hours in the Week

Mondays are fourteen hours long, Tuesdays the same. Wednesdays are nice, only up at the school then hours then. Thursdays? Those are twelve hours, and Friday's have football games, so they're typically sixteen hours long. Then either rehearsals or contests on Saturdays. Which leaves me Wednesday evenings and Sundays to take care of all the extra stuff I need to get done.

Stuff like trying to find time to order my cap and gown. (I can't make it to the WT bookstore during the day, how am I supposed to manage?) I need to sit down and find time to order graduation announcements. I need to take my GRE in case I don't get hired on in Canyon, so I have a back up plan for the next year, i.e., graduate work at WT while I tech and teach lessons with the CHS Band. (Although hopefully, I'll just get a job. I'm working on the assumption that nothing will open up, however.)

I also would love to find time for extra sectionals with my drum line. I hate pulling them out of rehearsals to work on music, because then they're missing drill work which they really need. But what options are left to me? With the lessons I teach, classes I have, and set rehearsals I've already set up, the only time I can do outside of class sectionals is Tuesday or Wednesday nights at 7:00, or Sundays. That obviously wouldn't go over well for a variety of reasons. I'm willing to give up the time, but I don't want to ask that of my students, or their parents.

I wish I had time to sit down and figure out all this graduation/graduate work stuff. I think I finally have graduation set up and good to go, but I want to be taking grad school courses in the spring (unless my dream job opens up over Christmas...) and that's a whole other test and application that I haven't even started on.

Honestly, I'm just glad I managed to squeeze my music certification test in and pass it. Squeezed it in on a Sunday no less, I was lucky. Only Sunday testing option in the panhandle this semester. I think I was blessed that opportunity was available. Now I only need another few small miracles, and my life will be on it's ideal course.

Regardless, I need another weekday to fit everything in. One where the banks aren't closed, and the world doesn't shut down like on Sundays. Because Sunday afternoons are great for rest, but just don't cut it when trying to catch up on life.

Sunday, September 12, 2010

The Proverbial Axe

As an Infection
Is expunged from the body,
By such means is health preserved;
That is nature's way.

Is it not our obligation
To rise above nature
And to cultivate
Rather than eliminate?

How much more fruitful is an acre
When toiled and labored,
Planned meticulously,
Than when left to its own devices?

Only when a stone is squared well
Will it find its place
As part of a greater construct.

Before we cut off a limb,
Perhaps we should treat the wound?

It is fine to cut out a cancer,
Until you see all your problems as cancers.

Thursday, August 19, 2010

Deep Breaths

If a background check is mandatory I shouldn't have to pay for it. Unless we're dealing with the government, of course.

I think what frustrates me more about it is the absolute lack of warning. If one of my friends hadn't said something, I would have walked my happy butt into the administration building of CISD and filled out the paper work, then had to walk right back out, because I can't shell out the money. I have to choose between eating and putting off my background check another week and a half? Yeah, that's a hard one.

We received an email from the education department telling us to get the background check done, where to get it done, etc, etc. But not one mention of a mandatory fee, cost, price, money, anything of the sort.

Unlike every other major on campus, I'm already student teaching. Been doing it off and on since May, hitting it hard the past two weeks. I don't have time for a job. I'm poor. Yes, probably poorer than you English Major. That poor.

I hate surprises. I hate fee surprises even more. And mandatory fee surprises just might be the most pernicious and evil of all.

To be fair, apparently this will cover the cost of the hard copy of my Teaching Certificate, once I manage to miracle the money to take my last certification test.  Why finger printing and a piece of paper cost fifty-five or sixty dollars is beyond me, other than a tax on would be educators. I guess it's the same reason my electronic certification tests, which are all multiple choice, cost $125.00 to process and email me my scores.

*sigh*

Yeah, most underpaid profession I think is right.

Wednesday, August 18, 2010

Raised

On the evening of August 17, 2010, I was raised to the Sublime Degree of Master Mason. Boy, it's been a long time coming, but it made the anticipation worth it! Very excited that I am now wearing the ring that's been sitting on my desk for the past few weeks. Hopefully, sometime soonish, I would like to take a few pictures of myself dressed up in my apron, more for me than anything else; though if I do, I'll probably post a picture or two here as well.

Already have a couple of brothers dropping hints about the York Rite, which I am most certainly interested in since the brother who sponsored me is the Right Eminent Grand Commander of Texas. But as with all things in college, I think it will come down to time and [most importantly] money! Perhaps some of the brothers with real jobs will cut a deal with me, allowing me to pay them back over time... how far can you stretch the poor college student excuse in life? The Lord knows its still true in my case.

A Mason and a Man

My Brother, Masonry means much more
Than the wearing of a pin
Or carrying a paid-up dues receipt
So the Lodge will let me in

You may wear an emblem on your coat
From a finger flash a ring
But if you're not sincere at heart
This doesn't mean a thing

It's merely an outward sign to show
The World that you belong
To this great Fraternal Brotherhood
That teaches right from wrong

What really counts lies buried deep
Within the human breast
'Till Masonic teaching brings it out
And puts it to the test

If you practice out of the Lodge
The things which you learn within
Be just and upright to yourself
And to your fellow men

Console a Brother when he's sick
And assist him when in need
Without a thought of personal reward
For any act or deed

Walk the world in such a way
That the world can see
That only the best can meet the test
Laid down by Masonry

Be always faithful to your trust
And do the best you can
Then you can proudly tell the world
You're a Mason and a Man

By: Bro. C.F. Reynolds

Saturday, July 31, 2010

Angel of Light

As the sun sets
And cloud blankets Earth
I stand upon a mountain
Looking down upon
God's Creation

And like a sweetly singing angel
A voice, lucent in the dusk,
A song sings the wind,
Brushes the plains,
Kisses His Work
With gentle blessings.

And that Precious Gift,
Womb of our very civilization
Breathes deeply and sighs,
The sweet exhalation
Of God Himself.

Friday, July 30, 2010

I'll let the video speak for itself.

The Perpetual Adolescent

An interesting article in the Weekly Standard that actually dates back to March 15, 2004. It was recently brought to my attention by the Art of Manliness blog by Brett McKay. It covers manhood, maturity, the 'man boy' attitude of today's male youth (though it doesn't use that term), and how, in our youth culture in America, we are seemingly incapable of separating physical youth and energy from emotional and mental maturity. It's a long one, at seven pages, but it'll repay you in dividends. Stay with it, its worth it. Some excerpts below:


"WHENEVER ANYONE under the age of 50 sees old newsreel film of Joe DiMaggio's 56-game hitting streak of 1941, he is almost certain to be brought up by the fact that nearly everyone in the male-dominated crowds--in New York, Boston, Chicago, Detroit, Cleveland--seems to be wearing a suit and a fedora or other serious adult hat. The people in those earlier baseball crowds, though watching a boyish game, nonetheless had a radically different conception of themselves than most Americans do now. A major depression was ending, a world war was on. Even though they were watching an entertainment that took most of them back to their boyhoods, they thought of themselves as adults, no longer kids, but grown-ups, adults, men.
[snip]
The increasing affluence the United States enjoyed after World War II, extending into the current day, also contributed heavily to forming the character I've come to think of as the perpetual American adolescent. Earlier, with less money around, people were forced to get serious, to grow up--and fast. How quickly the Depression generation was required to mature! How many stories one used to hear about older brothers going to work at 18 or earlier, so that a younger brother might be allowed to go to college, or simply to help keep the family afloat! With lots of money around, certain kinds of pressure were removed. More and more people nowadays are working, as earlier generations were not, with a strong safety net of money under them. All options opened, they now swim in what Kierkegaard called "a sea of possibilities," and one of these possibilities in America is to refuse to grow up for a longer period than has been permitted any other people in history.
[snip]
Two of the great television sitcom successes of recent years, "Seinfeld" and "Friends," though each is different in its comic tone, are united by the theme of the permanent adolescent loose in the big city. One takes the characters in "Seinfeld" to be in their middle to late thirties, those in "Friends" in their late twenties to early thirties. Charming though they may be, both sets of characters are oddly stunted. They aren't quite anywhere and don't seem to be headed anywhere, either. Time is suspended for them. Aimless and shameless, they are in the grip of the everyday Sturm und Drang of adolescent self-absorption. Outside their rather temporary-looking apartments, they scarcely exist. Personal relations provide the full drama of their lives. Growth and development aren't part of the deal. They are still, somehow, in spirit, locked in a high school of the mind, eating dry cereal, watching a vast quantity of television, hoping to make ecstatic sexual scores. Apart from the high sheen of the writing and the comic skill of the casts, I wonder if what really attracts people to these shows--"Friends" still, "Seinfeld" in its reruns--isn't the underlying identification with the characters because of the audience's own longing for a perpetual adolescence, cut loose, free of responsibility, without the real pressures that life, that messy business, always exerts.
[snip]
The old model for ambition was solid hard work that paid off over time. One began at a low wage, worked one's way up through genuine accomplishment, grew wealthier as one grew older, and, with luck, retired with a sense of financial security and pleasure in one's achievement. But the new American ambition model features the kid multimillionaire--the young man or woman who breaks the bank not long out of college. An element of adolescent impatience enters in here--I want it, now!--and also an element of continued youthfulness.

The model of the type may be the professional athlete. "The growth of professional basketball over the past twenty-odd years, from a relatively minor spectator sport to a mass-cultural phenomenon," notes Rebecca Mead, in the New Yorker, "is an example of the way in which all of American culture is increasingly geared to the tastes of teenage boys." 
[snip]
Self-esteem, of which one currently hears so much, is at bottom another essentially adolescent notion. The great psychological sin of our day is to violate the self-esteem of adolescents of all ages. One might have thought that such self-esteem as any of us is likely to command would be in place by the age of 18. (And what is the point of having all that much self-esteem anyhow, since its logical culminating point can only be smug complacence?) Even in nursing homes, apparently, patients must be guarded against a feeling of their lowered consequence in the world. Self-esteem has become a womb to tomb matter, so that, in contemporary America, the inner and the outer child can finally be made one in the form of the perpetual adolescent.
[snip]
The greatest sins, Santayana thought, are those that set out to strangle human nature. This is of course what is being done in cultivating perpetual adolescence, while putting off maturity for as long as possible. Maturity provides a more articulated sense of the ebb and flow, the ups and downs, of life, a more subtly reticulated graph of human possibility. Above all, it values a clear and fit conception of reality. Maturity is ever cognizant that the clock is running, life is finite, and among the greatest mistakes is to believe otherwise. Maturity doesn't exclude playfulness or high humor. Far from it. The mature understand that the bitterest joke of all is that the quickest way to grow old lies in the hopeless attempt to stay forever young."
Written by Joe Epstein. My God, this man is brilliant.

The Entered Apprentice

What gave you the urge a Mason to be?
To join our Fraternity ancient and free,
Was some Brother talking a bit out of turn?
And did you cock an ear to see what you could learn?
Or did somebody give you a hint on the sly,
That you'd not be invited but would have to apply?

Or was your wife's father a Past Master no less,
Well what ever it was there isn't a doubt,
That you'd hardly a clue what the Craft's all about,
Until tonight when you stood at the door,
Divested of metal and sightless and poor.

You knelt there in prayer when the questions had ceased,
You passed round the lodge and advanced to the East.

Your vows being taken and hoodwinked no more,
You continued your journey once more round the floor.
At the north eastern corner the lesson was plain,
That Charity must be a Freemason's aim.

You retired from the Lodge, would have welcomed a rest,
But in no time at all you come back fully dressed.

You summoned your pluck standing there on the floor,
You'd endured quite a lot but there wasn't much more.

The piece-de-resistance, the Charge came at last,
And for truth and for wisdom it can't be surpassed,
You'll hear it again a hundred times yet,
And I hope that its lessons you'll never forget.

Thus your First Degree ended,
It had been quite a day,
Now please listen carefully to what I have to say,
You're one foot on the ladder, and your climb will be slow,
But when you reach the top just look humbly below.

And think of tonight when you stood at the door,
Divested of metal, sightless and poor.

Source: By Brother Walter Perkins

Tuesday, July 27, 2010

Quote from Pike

Found this quote on another brothers blog. It's excerpted from Pike's morals and dogma, and I thought it was poetic.

"To make honor and duty the steady beacon-lights that shall guide your life-vessel over the stormy seas of time; to do that which it is right to do, not because it will ensure you success, or bring with it a reward, or gain the applause of men, or be “the best policy,” more prudent or more advisable; but because it is right, and therefore ought to be done; to war incessantly against error, intolerance, ignorance, and vice, and yet to pity those who err, to be tolerant even of intolerance, to teach the ignorant, and to labor to reclaim the vicious—these are some of the duties of a Mason."
Albert Pike

Saturday, July 24, 2010

Old Spice

This might just be the greatest commercial in the history of commercials.

Tuesday, July 20, 2010

EU to Hold Atheist and Freemason Summit


EUobserver / EU to hold atheist and freemason summit

I'd like to thank Bro. Hodapp for bringing this article to my attention on his blog.

Well, here's a tricky one. Apparently, every year for the past five years, the European Union leaders have met with prominent religious leaders of the European Union. They attempt to open a dialog between the government and the concerns of its religious citizens. It's a noble act, although I don't know if it would fly over here, state side. 

Not unsurprisingly, various Atheists and humanist groups throughout the EU felt they should have a fair shake at sending delegates to meet with the same people, and I'm inclined to agree with them. If its right for the religious groups to do so, then its only right to give the non religious the same benefits. 

What I do have a problem with is this: The humanists groups are having a separate meeting from the religious groups (which is possibly a good thing) and the government has invited Freemasons to send delegates to the humanist meeting.

This is a delicate and possibly precarious situation. Most of those who aren't Freemasons don't realize that there are two pretty distinct forms of Freemasonry. That of Grand Lodge Freemasonry, which has its roots in England, and is considered mainstream Freemasonry, the Masonry you see in America, and that of Grand Orient Masonry, which has its origins in France, but has a foot hold in many of the mainland European countries (including Belgium), and is also referred to as Continental Freemasonry.

There are several significant differences between these two groups. Some of the bigger factors, however, are this:

Mainstream Freemasonry
Grand Orient Freemasonry
Requires a belief in Deity, but otherwise open to all religions, regardless of who your Deity is

Only open to men

Teaches that one should be a loyal citizen and subject to ones government

Politics and religion are not to be discussed in an open lodge. These are considered personal matters, and Masonry will not interfere with specific beliefs, not tell you what you should believe.
Allows atheists to join



Allows co-Masonry, that is, the initiation of women



Often gets involved in government, attempts to lobby for influence in politics, openly makes politics statements. Also often inquires into a petitioners political beliefs.

Many anti Catholic movements in Europe have had prominent Orient Masons involved in them, arguably fueling some of the bad blood between Masonry and Catholicism.


The two groups had a schisms in 1877, which hasn't been rectified, nor does it look like it will be rectified anytime in the near future.

Now the significance of this is Belgium, the country that (rightly) pushed for the atheist/humanist summit in the EU, has a Grand Orient in its country. The Grand Orient of Belgium has indeed opened an office in order to:

...lobby against the rising influence of religious organisations in the EU institutions.
"The masonic orders should practice politics in the positive sense of the term: So that despite their own partisan divisions, they speak out on the side of secularism and voice their disagreement with this or that governmental or European decision," Jean-Michel Quillardet, the former Grand Master of the Grand Orient de France, told Belgian daily Le Soir in an interview out on Wednesday (17 February).

And further:
"It is necessary to impose the universal idea of the Enlightenment, which consists of the notion that people are citizens and European citizens before being Jewish, black, Maghreb, homosexual, heterosexual." 
The second article as well, I found courtesy of Bro. Hodapp's blog.

So I think its safe to assume that it was the Grand Orient of Belgium and its political lobbying office that manage to get their foot in the door of this humanist summit and have the fraternity represented.

However, this poses a number of problems for Regular Freemasonry. Most people don't know that there are two different Masonic 'factions' as it were, and won't distinguish between the two. This is going to give the religious right fodder for the debates, now seeing Freemasons associated with an atheist/humanist summit, regardless of whether or not Regular lodges sent representatives.

If they do send representatives, the association would be true. If they don't, people won't recognize the difference.

It's further complicated by Regular Freemasonry's refusal to be involved in politics. Once again, I think this wise and that the lodges should maintain this rule. According to our traditions and beliefs, we should not be involved in politics. Indeed, some Grand Lodges consider the prohibition of discussion of religion and politics in the lodge as one of our Landmarks. Most regular Masons will tell you that political lobbying isn't something that we should be involved in.

However, if we stay out of the debate, then that means Continental (or Grand Orient) Masonry effectively speaks for all Masons. That isn't true at all, technically, but they will be the only Masons publicly voicing themselves in politics. Given how divergent Continental Masonry is from Regular, their lobbying could hurt Regular Masonry if we choose not to speak up for ourselves.

Yet if Regular Masonry was represented, how should it be done? At the humanist/atheist summit? Regular Masons are all men of a religious nature, though with much variation. I highly doubt Regular lodges would be particularly welcomed at that summit. If fact, I know they wouldn't. Just read this wonderful quote from the article:

"I find it rather odd," David Pollock, president of the European Humanist Federation, told EUobserver. "Some of the Grand Lodges are secularist organisations, and strongly for separation of church and state, but they also retain all sorts of gobbledygook and myths such as the Great Architect of the Universe."

And this, also from Mr. Pollock:

"Neither religious groups nor non-religious ones have any greater claim to taking up the time of commissioners."
"But sadly we lost that battle, and so with the atheist summit, at least we're being treated equally, although I'd rather if we were there along with the churches. Instead we're being bundled off with the Freemasons." 

But if we were to be represented at the religious summit, that would once again stir of the erroneous 'Masonry is a religion' nonsense that its detractors so often employ. Besides, we don't really belong there either. We prohibit the discussion of religion and politics, should we be discussing politics directly with the government and the religious leaders of the world? I think not.

So where does that leave us? Disenfranchised by our own virtues, with irregular Masonry putting on a public face that will reflect on all Masons, whether or not its 'right'. It's not a desirable situation to be in, I think, nor one easily solved. Always those Europeans, causing the problems.

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As a side note, can anyone imagine the political upheaval here in America if the US Congress, the President, and a special commission set up by the government had an annual summit with religious leaders mandated by law? And then started meeting with atheist/humanist groups as well? I think cable news would explode by virtue of the furor on both sides of the debate. It would be epic and frightening at the same time. (Particularly with how charged politics have been lately.)